4.08.2005
So, I'll be home alone all weekend. Em went to Virginia.
I'm bored. I've been up since 7am. I finished 40th out of 900 in a poker tournament. I got a lot of an article done, and did some other junk (watch TV, eat, etc).
But damn, I'm tired.
Thankfully, it's time for bed. I have a basketball tournament in the morning. I hope we do well!
I'm bored. I've been up since 7am. I finished 40th out of 900 in a poker tournament. I got a lot of an article done, and did some other junk (watch TV, eat, etc).
But damn, I'm tired.
Thankfully, it's time for bed. I have a basketball tournament in the morning. I hope we do well!
4.04.2005
Okay, so here's the situation in my life:
I'm still employed, though I'm not that enthralled with my job anymore.
My marriage, however, is not doing well. In fact, at the end of June, Em and I are going our separate ways for the time being. Who knows if it's permanent or not; at this time, I have to assume it'll be a clean break.
So, I don't have much up here; all of my friends have moved. I do have basketball, and I love my kids very much; leaving them would really, really hurt. But, I know I have to do what's best for me, and that may be moving down to Virginia to get a teaching job. I really don't like it, but I'm kind of stuck.
So, anyone reading this who talks to me regularly can hopefully understand if I don't talk a whole lot, or if I get a bit irritable (you know, more than normal). This is the most pressure I've ever had to deal with, and I'm not sure how to handle it. I don't know what the best path of action is, and I'd rather just let it sort itself out.
But, of course, I know it won't do that.
I'm still employed, though I'm not that enthralled with my job anymore.
My marriage, however, is not doing well. In fact, at the end of June, Em and I are going our separate ways for the time being. Who knows if it's permanent or not; at this time, I have to assume it'll be a clean break.
So, I don't have much up here; all of my friends have moved. I do have basketball, and I love my kids very much; leaving them would really, really hurt. But, I know I have to do what's best for me, and that may be moving down to Virginia to get a teaching job. I really don't like it, but I'm kind of stuck.
So, anyone reading this who talks to me regularly can hopefully understand if I don't talk a whole lot, or if I get a bit irritable (you know, more than normal). This is the most pressure I've ever had to deal with, and I'm not sure how to handle it. I don't know what the best path of action is, and I'd rather just let it sort itself out.
But, of course, I know it won't do that.
I had this weird dream this morning, right before I woke up.
I was out walking somewhere (that was the first thing I had to question), and I got a call on my cell phone. It was my aunt, criticizing me for not calling my mom for a long time (we haven't spoken in about a year).
This made me run a bit while I was talking on the phone, trying to defend myself (I was the last person to call, I'm the only person to ever call, etc), when I came to a ledge. Assuming it was a small jump below, I just ran off towards the other side. Then I saw it was about two stories and I was crashing towards it.
As I hit the bottom, I woke up, cold sweat (for the third night in a row), and heart pounding.
That really didn't get my morning off to a good start.
I was out walking somewhere (that was the first thing I had to question), and I got a call on my cell phone. It was my aunt, criticizing me for not calling my mom for a long time (we haven't spoken in about a year).
This made me run a bit while I was talking on the phone, trying to defend myself (I was the last person to call, I'm the only person to ever call, etc), when I came to a ledge. Assuming it was a small jump below, I just ran off towards the other side. Then I saw it was about two stories and I was crashing towards it.
As I hit the bottom, I woke up, cold sweat (for the third night in a row), and heart pounding.
That really didn't get my morning off to a good start.
